The show must go on... - Queen

Empty spaces - what are we living for 

Abandoned places - I guess we know the score 

On and on, does anybody know what we are looking for... 

Another hero, another mindless crime 

Behind the curtain, in the pantomime 

Hold the line, does anybody want to take it anymore

The show must go on, 

The show must go on 

Inside my heart is breaking 

My make-up may be flaking 

But my smile still stays on.

Whatever happens, I'll leave it all to chance 

Another heartache, another failed romance 

On and on, does anybody know what we are living for? 

I guess I'm learning, I must be warmer now 

I'll soon be turning, round the corner now 

Outside the dawn is breaking 

But inside in the dark I'm aching to be free

The show must go on 

The show must go on 

Inside my heart is breaking 

My make-up may be flaking 

But my smile still stays on 

My soul is painted like the wings of butterflies 

Fairytales of yesterday will grow but never die 

I can fly - my friends 

The show must go on 

The show must go on 

I'll face it with a grin 

I'm never giving in 

On - with the show - 

I'll top the bill, I'll overkill 

I have to find the will to carry on 

On with the - 

On with the show - 

The show must go on... 

Freddie's last song ... THE SHOW MUST GO ON ...:)

And the shadow of the day Will embrace the world in grey...

I close both locks below the window
I close both blinds and turn away

Sometimes solutions aren't so simple
Sometimes good bye's the only way


 hmmm...farewell time...this little virtual "hawan" to give away "ahuti" of many of the baggage that shouldn't be carried along any longer...
assuming responsibilities -swaha....
misplaced ownership - swaha....
emotional dependance on something which at the end of the day is not yours - swaha...
assume consequences & delay to act - swaha...
This Linkin Park song as a prelude to the very Indian but virtual & only literary "hawan"seemingly makes me happier

Lighter side :)

Some great one liners i came across :)

1. Regular naps prevent old age… especially if you take them while driving.

2. Having one child makes you a parent; having two makes you a referee.

3. Marriage is a relationship in which one person is always right and the other is the husband!

4. They said we should all pay our tax with a smile. I tried - but they wanted cash.

5. A child’s greatest period of growth is the month after you’ve purchased new school uniforms.

6. Don’t feel bad. A lot of people have no talent.

7. Don’t marry the person you want to live with, marry the one you cannot live without… but whatever you 

   do, you’ll regret it later.

8. You can’t buy love . . but you pay heavily for it.

9. True friends stab you in the front.

10. Forgiveness is giving up my right to hate you for hurting me.

11. Bad officials are elected by good citizens who do not vote.

12. Laziness is nothing more than the habit of resting before you get tired.

13. My wife and I always compromise. I admit I’m wrong and she agrees with me.

14. Those who can’t laugh at themselves leave the job to others.

15. Ladies first. Pretty ladies sooner.

16. It doesn’t matter how often a married man changes his job, he still ends up with the same boss.

17. They call our language the mother tongue because the father seldom gets to speak.

18. Saving is the best thing. Especially when your parents have done it for you.

19. Wise men talk because they have something to say; fools talk because they have to say something.

20. Real friends are the ones who survive transitions between address books.

21.If your father is a poor man,It is your fate but,If your father-in-law is a poor man,It's your stupidity.

22.Behind every successful man, there is a woman And behind every unsuccessful man, there are two 

     women.

23. Every man should marry.After all, happiness is not the only thing in Life.

24.Success is a relative term.It brings so many relatives.

25."Your future depends on your dreams"So go to sleep

26.The wise never marry.And when they marry they become otherwise.

 

Emotional Dependance...

Why does life give u a run for every thing u truly feel for ? probably for u to value that thing more than u usually would have done.. since last 2 months this "piece of literature" has been like a baby to me...i  recently realized that the only difference between an actual child and a brain child in biology....this has changed the way i emote...after quite a long time i felt something worthy enough to be only thought of giving a damn to the rest of the world...the plethora of emotions i went through during its inception from being elated, ecstatic, intrigued, irritated, frustrated, fierce, upset, hurt needlessly proves my attachment to this brain child of mine...The Creator's ego is dangerous... i am weary of this emotional dependance...all i care for is the journey...the destination is the bonus...

Rain...

Rain...the best medium for getting memory collages out of u...nature affects one biologically is proven ..but rains r something which affect one at mostly the psychological level...in my own case i've been witnessing rains since childhood...but every rain occurrence has a different story to tell...the stories which, when one rekindles, he gets to explore a new aspect to life...on a generic note, the experience that rains induce in humankind as a whole is more or less the same coz it gets all five sensory organs working instigating the sixth to work as well..:)...be it the typical earthen fragrance of the moist soil...be it the brushes of the moisture laden wind... be it the sight of the perfectly rhythmic raindrops... be it the specific sound pattern that these drops kiss the earth with...or be it the feel of these drops rolling through ur  face...divine isn't it? ...well but all stories associated with rains aren't only pleasant ... some situations r powerful enough to supersede the phenomenal divinity & make their conditioning more pronounced...
i at times ponder over the dialogue that constantly keeps happening between the "seasoning by the nature" and "conditioning by the society"  ... the latter i feel is dominant...& thats why we have forgotten to draw joys out of small things like mere sensitivity towards nature....its said that history repeats itself...if only the current expectations from the quality of life get replaced by the age old ones...man would be way happier then...

People...(3)

i can definitely not let go of this thread without mentioning the people who make u feel good about knowing them...importantly irrespective of how good or bad u r to them... the people of whom ur principal good memories r made of ...
the previous posts on "people" were more of observation & less of personal experience...but this one has a dash of personal experience by personifying the observations...
the sameer & amit dadas ...(security givers).the ones those pamper u with unconditional love & heart warming brotherly security...the ones u know r 1 call apart even at midnight...the ones u know would never mention if they r bothered coz of u...& (only u 2 can love me- from doing my stupid school homework to the extent of tying my shoe laces...love u so much)
the Audrie misses ...(the confidence boosters) the ones that try their best to showcase ur talents to the rest of the world...the ones that imbibe confidence in the foundation age... the ones that selflessly  give u opportunities to prove urself & applaud when u start becoming a go getter.... at a tender age this is what matters a lot...

the dharinis...(the "i am always there for u ones")the ones those stand by u through thick & thin...the ones who genuinely care...the ones u can share ur vulnerability with...the ones who'll fight hell with u but kill those who'll lay a finger on u...ur partners in crime...:)...the ones who define a sister :)
the guddi tais ...(the foster moms) the ones who selflessly act as a foster mom to u....the ones whose eyes keep getting moist when u meet them after long...the ones who bully u & u actually dont mind it...:)
the sister maritas...(the true critics) ...the ones who blast u enough to make u push ur thresholds of perfection higher & also make u silently curse them &...then end up telling ur parents they r lucky enough to have u...
the monus(bhai/dadu)...(the support systems) ... the ones u can trust with ur decisions...the ones who'd think 10 times before commenting on ur decisions taking care nothing goes wrong with u...  the ones that just dont let u give up...
the pujas ...(chod na yaar ones)... the ones that blow off ur worries & dont let u fret at all...the ones that make u feel happy & only happy when they r around...
the mayurs... ( the good humans) ... the ones that make u believe in humanity & that it still exists...the ones those r ever ready to help...the ones those who share cute kiddo memories with :)
the suvarnas ...(the obligers)...the ones who may not get one square meal a day but still they oblige u by their heartfelt "duas" ... "from the bottom of the heart" wishes are the rarest these days...
the rishabhs...(friends for life)...the ones those make u feel special...the ones who help u restore ur self faith when it gets unstable at times...the ones those understand that mood swings dont define a person...the ones that dont judge u from instances...the ones who genuinely care...
the shwetas ...(friends for life)...the ones who actually make u sit & think if u 2 had a past life relation coz sudden proximity remains unanswered...the ones that don't need words to be explained...the connection works...
the vishals ....(the trustworthy)...the ones those r impulsive , impressionable & lock horns very often but those who u can talk ur heart out...the ones those u might have superficial differences with but u know they wont ever breach ur trust...
the amits...(the chivalrous)...the ones who know how to talk to a woman....the ones whose concern doesn't smell of male chauvinism....

more shades of people coming up soon...

         

People...(2)

& the list continues....

the keyboard warriors... those who r physically, mentally or more of intellectually incapable of facing u or in other words those gutless cowards who make use of the keyboard as a weapon and actually be happy about it  are the ones i call keyboard warriors or the biggest losers... 

the "well" tadpoles ...the loser egoists surrounded by their good for nothing ego &  similar people as their world ,who actually refuse to creep out of their false world & face the real world just because they know they wont survive...

the slang hurlers ...a bunch of insecure & "scared from within" craps who exhibit how  scared they r by making slang come to their rescue...

the "self assumed - clever" selfish... the ones who think they have so called cleverly wrapped their selfish motives in sugar coated words of concern & they feel the rest of the world is dumb enough to buy it...

the "convenient" amnesiacs...the ones who conveniently forget a good Samaritan's deed coz of either exceptionally low self worth resulting into intentional impaired vision to any good done to them ever; or materialistic motives... i keep bumping into this kind very often... most of these avail ur unconditional help mostly emotional help & dont think twice before spiting venom against u...it shows their make...

the "i also exist " ones ... the ones whose existence is taken so much for granted that they need to work their asses out to make themselves felt... in other words the ones that show off to the extent that people get amused out of it....mock phone calls made when in a group to make the conversation highlighting expenses "heard" , deliberate mentions of the rich & the famous as if they r ur neighbours :) , deliberate increase in tone when a target is around, public display of affection ....r their few traits...

when i was a kid, my aaji always used to tell me..."aaplya barobarichya lokanshich maitri karaychi"...my aai always intervened that by "barobari" she meant equal or more in intellect but i always knew that by "barobari" aaji meant equal majorly in finance.... i didnt listen to either of them...how wud i have acquired a rich experience in observing different shades of people with respect to different setpus, natures & upbringings if i wud have only equals as my surrounding? :)

People...

life introduces u to different kinds of people u wont be that happy to meet... i categorize them as ....
the imposters...the ones who'll pose in ur presence & be totally contradictory in ur absence & actually believe their double faces wont be ever seen by u...
the false believers...the ones who r very happy with the false notion that they have fooled u & end up making a fool of themselves in ur eyes...i actually get amused at their beliefs
the masquerades....the ones who create a good 1st impression but fail to hang on to it for longer....
the loser egoists...the ones who have exaggerated egos which have been generally arisen out of the "i am good for nothing" honest opinion they have of themselves...
recently got to study this category closely...they pose as if they run the  world...& the moment their delusion is broken they show their true colours...they r huge parasites...they r constantly in an effort to conceal their failures by trying to govern others life....
i pity this category the most...the 1st 3 kinds may be due to circumstances or upbringing...but this kind has to do with the subconscious...
ignorance is bliss it is said...& i am blessed with the knowledge of assessing people in meager time... what am i lucky or unlucky?  
 

Disparity...

2 days from today would be my first ever paper presentation at an international conference...i should be excited...if not excited, nervous atleast...but my mind is not even visiting the thoughts 'bout the conference...its stuck....stuck at something i wont get even if i keep yearning for it for an entire lifetime...the piano at school...i can actually write a memory book on it...i still vividly remember how happy i was when Sister Marita had caught me meddling with the keys of the piano and attempting Hindustani Classical over it...in a "bunked class"...and after a long lecture on how advanced my move of bunking class in class VI was (and so how desperately i needed to rush to the confession box to get over with this sin of mine)...she had finally agreed to teach me to play it...
15 years...gosh..after 15 years its touch still felt the same...it was difficult but i could fight back that lump in the throat...when i felt that wood again...plethora of emotions I'd say...i actually thank u Almighty....that it was locked and the keys weren't available...it would have been very very difficult for me to stay composed once the music would have struck out...
i wish i could get that piano home...i wish i could relive all the beautiful ...beautiful memories it gifted me...
coz these instruments have given me far beyond what i could ever expect from the lifeless, i have personified them...drifting back to the notion of disparity... now who'll throw light over the faulty design of human psyche where the mind & the brain don't go hand in hand

Divinity personified...

Tera...Tujhko saunp de...
kya lagat hai mor..
mera mujhme kuch naahi..
jo hovat so tor...

Selfless faith can only be divine i believe... and you are divinity personified..Love you always....AAI...The best gifts in the world are those not demanded :)...

Connection...

Tut Ke Bikharna Mujhko Zarur Aata Hai 
Varna Ibbadat Wala Ssarur Aata Hai 
Sajde Mein Rehne Do, Abb Kahin Na Jaunga
Abb Jo Tumne Thukhraya To Sawar Na Paunga 
Maula Maula Maula Mere Maula 
Dararein Dararein Hai Maathe Pe Maula 
Maramat Mukdar Ki Kar Do Maula, Mere Maula.. 



this song's in my playlist in since last 2 yrs....awesome lyrics and awesome composition...
One of the most intangible connects i cannot put into words ...the subconsciously best feeling in the world is to believe some unfathomable power will take care of u come what may....& the consciously best feeling is ur ego denying the existence of any power above u... . 

:)

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